Sunday, August 19, 2007

Never Been Madder

Maybe opposite poles attract, but when they eventually find that being opposite poles isn't as glamorous and romantic as they thought it would be, they get bored. The cohesiveness falls apart along with the initial fascination. It could be anything, but I'm sure that's not love.

I always thought that a connection between two people supposedly in love covers far more than physical attraction. Intellecual attraction is far more important, because after all the kissing and the snuggling and the anything-you-can-think-of, all that would be left is conversation. If two people in love can't pull that one off properly, I believe that they are in love for all the wrong reasons.

I've always been after the perfect fit. I don't settle for so-so fits, okay fits, blah blah fits—just the perfect fit. But maybe, just maybe, I settled for a so-so fit. It's causing me unbelievable amounts of stress and angst. I don't like stress and angst is overrated. It's wearing me out. I don't want to stick to someone just because I want to prove all my friends wrong. I'm sure there's a bigger reason other than that and this so-called love. I just can't figure out what it is right now.

Let's hope I figure it later, after this tantrum has worn off.

Tell me, am I boring? Do I have to know all about concepts such as Web 2.0? Do I have to be damn good in Photoshop? Tell me, what should I do to be interesting and to deserve some of your time online? Maybe a video of me doing cartwheels would do the trick. I can't do cartwheels, but I might try and me falling flat on my ass might amuse you.

I have never been this mad for a long time. I don't cry often either. But just for making me mad and making me cry a bit, don't expect to hear from me for a long time. Hit the caps lock, turn on the fuck meter—the only time you actually care enough to tell me something in more than two sentences is when you're mad at me, so what the hell.


Anonymous Niko said...

I’d have to agree with Marco - if I’m permitted to butt in, but heck, this is a public blog! - only thinking that being dismissive isn’t really going to help anything. Better not to have conversations if you know that nobody you’re particularly fond of would even bother to process whatever you just placed an effort on talking about. Luckily I’m almost always used to it anyway.

But Lizette, there’s no such thing as a perfect fit. Weather makes the straightest wall erode in the slightest proportions. What more about people whose interests are formed with time? There may be six billion possibilities but no one really is made for someone. All it takes is a well thought out compromise.

Because, sometimes, even I wonder why I get to talk to people like you in the first place.

Posted by Niko at August 17, 2007, 4:22 pm

2:17 AM  
Blogger lizlan said...

it’s a public blog, but airing your opinions can only go as far as i would let it.

i would tell you something, Niko. cc never snapped at me. his pride was high but where i was concerned, it did not exist. i cared about the things he cared about and it went the same for him.

that was a perfect fit. so don’t give me that six billion possibilities bullshit.

if my boyfriend can’t put up with me, and i definitely can’t put up with him, i am not going to die in the process of leaving him. in fact, it would make my life less complicated.

2:17 AM  
Anonymous paul said...

ano nangyari?
Posted by paul at August 17, 2007, 9:08 pm

2:18 AM  
Anonymous Jigs said...

I don’t want to intrude in a topic or issue without knowing all of the facts. I just hope it works out in the end. I will also not try to stitch together context clues because it is not my place. I just want to say, life isn’t perfect, so by extension nothing in life is perfect.
Posted by Jigs at August 18, 2007, 5:53 pm

2:19 AM  
Anonymous Tom said...

I’m also unaware what happened and why you got madder. As to the perfect fit, Niko is right - there’s no such thing. It maybe perfect now but not later. Adjustments should be done along the way. Otherwise, things would get loose and out of hand.

Meantime, just let it pass.
Posted by Tom at August 18, 2007, 11:29 pm

2:19 AM  

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