Some Stupid Fight Last Night

I'm so fucked up. I don't know what I want and I don't know where to go. I keep on hesitating about my feelings. I keep holding back. That is no way to run a relationship. The only way I can think of doing is to just end it.

Why am I like this? Sure I love him, I definitely do. But I have to find a way to get used to it. Fast.